After a pretty decent morning at work, after very little sleep... I do remember hearing my alarm and thinking "wait a minute... i just closed my eyes", I'm on a downer again. The first thing that popped up when i got home and went online was a pretty depressing news article that just makes me angry. I hate when the news pops up. I mean... yahoo news is the *only* place i physically read news, unless someone tells me something. And it's good to know things right? but seriously some stuff just makes me really angry, and I think, what a fucked up world we live in. Where is all the good stuff? I find myself frowing upon human nature, because we're capable of just about anything. Just to top it off, I was reading something I bought myself as a treat. Volume 1 and 2 of "Cinema Sewer" cos i do love horror films and i was just curious as to what are the "sickest and nastiest" films around... I've actually just lost my appetite for horror movies and anything that might be sexual in nature. It's probably the most hardcore thing I have ever owned lol. My "treat" is now going to be passed on to someone that can give it a nice home, lol, I can't have stuff like that in my film. I mean, I was just curious, but it's not like i'm going to read it again. It's quite handy for anyone doing research on the topic I guess. Bye bye "Cinema Sewer" *tosses it to one side*. I donated my spare single mattress today to the British Heart Foundation... the less clutter I have in the space I live in, the less clutter in my head. I had a funny thought earlier, about selling all my dvds... it made me laugh and then the thought went away. I have A LOT of dvds...I think I will just try and get rid of as much as possible. REALLY go through my things and sort out what I want and what I don't...

I'm writing a lot, mainly for myself because it gives me something to do, and I feel like my thoughts are out there rather than in here *points to brain*. I like to drown out the thoughts with loud music... and singing along.

~Lupus